Sometimes we become surprised when while going through something so difficult, the friends we trusted the most are not there for us. It can be upsetting and sad yet we may realize that in every human being there is suffering and when suffering exists within anyone (you know), then their ability to be there for you may be Limited. But it's okay. We can learn from things like this by learning how to be really good friends (by going thru its opposite).

Don't take it personally.

People do the best they can do. But whether its a learned behavior that they cannot feel empathy for another
 (which is a form of suffering) or that they are going through something themselves that makes them unable to be there for you, pardon them, for your own peace of mind and heart. Otherwise it eats you up.

There comes a point when you value this body and mind (that has been loaned to you) so much that you have no time to waste to be less than kind to it. By pardoning others we are kind within. Pardoning doesn't mean that we have to continue to have an active friendship with them, but pardoning them even at a physical distance, helps maintain a healthy heart And mind, and so you  can ultimately wish them well and pray for their WellBeing. And then move on to yours too.

It's worth it. Sometimes our feelings may be so strong that reasoning it alone may not fully liberate us from this pain we may greatly feel.

Realizing that it is okay to feel whatever we feel is a good thing.

Allowing ourselves to feel whatever comes up is the act of leAst resistance.

By being the observer of what is, we bring whatever is our love and our kindness. Just like with a baby crying were not forcing baby to stop crying but instead we hug him or her with all our love and the love and space naturally melts any if his or her little suffering Away.

Upon allowing our feelings to be we shall feel lighter and calmer.

Inevitably we realize that we are not just our pain.

We may be ready to also connect to the aliveness within. With our hands. Our arms. Feet. Legs. Hips. Tummy. Back. Chest. Neck. Face. Head. We start connecting more and more to the peaceful vibrations within. Our inner body and the light of our essence becomes like a mother's love that gradually melts any of the remaining suffering into its love.

Love is grand. Love can heal mountains. It can heal so much. It is so worth it.

As we quiet our mind and feel the space inside, everything opens up to the light from within and it heals.

Everything that is not love eventually brings us back to love. Always does.

See the ego is part of this world because it is. We want to fence it off. We want to hate all who participate in it. We get angry with ourselves when we are led by our egos. We fight this fight continuously and get our hands so dirty in this battle. We hate when others treat us in ways that disturb our Morning or disturb our sleep. Yet the most amazing part of it is when we come to the realization that it is the ego our grandest hurdle. And without the hurdle we don't know what it's like to surpass it, to go beyond it. Above the mountain top there is a song of freedom and redemption. After the thunderstorms calm Their roars there is a silence unlike no other. After the darkness the sunrise seems quite sweet. It is the ego that catches our attention. It tricks us so easily. It always tries to. Yet there comes a time when we see this sickness is a sickness and we no longer blame ourselves or others. We just know we all can get stuck. So we understand that this is a hurdle we all as human beings must hurdle through. Some stay stuck in this Cold War for a long time. Some choose compassion. Some choose wisdom. Some choose grace. Some choose war. They judge the other yet they do the same thing, back and forth, until the eyes of the other are his own eyes and he with wisdom one day learns to come back home. This was all just a game, and by living through it we gain to see the bliss of our being. By seeing the darkness and its shadows we learn to finally see the stars, as we look up to the heavens with grace and gratitude.  For all that is not love eventually brings us back to love. 

See the ego is part of this world because it is. We want to fence it off. We want to hate all who participate in it. We get angry with ourselves when we are led by our egos. We fight this fight continuously and get our hands so dirty in this battle. We hate when others treat us in ways that disturb our Morning or disturb our sleep. Yet the most amazing part of it is when we come to the realization that it is the ego our grandest hurdle. And without the hurdle we don't know what it's like to surpass it, to go beyond it. Above the mountain top there is a song of freedom and redemption. After the thunderstorms calm Their roars there is a silence unlike no other. After the darkness the sunrise seems quite sweet. It is the ego that catches our attention. It tricks us so easily. It always tries to. Yet there comes a time when we see this sickness is a sickness and we no longer blame ourselves or others. We just know we all can get stuck. So we understand that this is a hurdle we all as human beings must hurdle through. Some stay stuck in this Cold War for a long time. Some choose compassion. Some choose wisdom. Some choose grace. Some choose war. They judge the other yet they do the same thing, back and forth, until the eyes of the other are his own eyes and he with wisdom one day learns to come back home. This was all just a game, and by living through it we gain to see the bliss of our being. By seeing the darkness and its shadows we learn to finally see the stars, as we look up to the heavens with grace and gratitude.  For all that is not love eventually brings us back to love. 

May we connect to the part of each other that is space, essence, light, eternal, and peace. As the outer body feels this light, magical things occur. 

You have been loved all along. I know that sometimes it felt like you were not loved. Yet you were loved. You were loved with beautiful intensity and beautiful light.  Those who were not able to love you was because they were not able to fully love themselves. Those who were not able to love you is because they were not able to fully be there for others because they were not able to fully be there for themselves. Yet inside of you you trusted. Inside of you trusted choosing to love unconditionally. Inside in you chose to love unconditionally and To not only forgive those who are not able to show you love but more so you were able to love those who were not able to show you love an in turn they learned from you and in turn were able to thank you. I love you. I love you with all my soul. I love you with all the glitter and all the hope and all the sweetness and all the shadows.  I love you and I love  even the things most people would Judge. I love you completely and I thank you so much. I thank you for teaching me how to love unconditionally. I thank you for teaching me to look past what people do and look at the core of each person - their soul. You have given and given and given and given so much and I'm so so loving you right now. I Give you my heart. I thank you completely. I honor you completely and dedicate my love to you. 

My dear friend Bob

Parading in the wind while wild dolphins emerge from the sea

Yes 

Here is paradise 

As the scuba gear is fitted slowly

Yes

Here is paradise

As the silent day

Becomes part of everything that is

And everything that whispers love

Cameras in hand

And a dedication to appreciate

A dedication to learn

A dedication to teach

And a dedication to conserve

Because yes

This is paradise

This is God

This is the temple of nature

And its resilience shines

It takes and takes of what we give it

And it does the best it can

It always does

So with a camera in hand

Journeying in the midst of ocean and fish

Feeling the freedom

Feeling the bliss

Feeling the mission

And and overwhelming appreciation

To life's majestic forces

For

Yes 

This is paradise

This is indeed paradise

This is indeed a sacred land

And yes

It is worth it to keep its beauty alive

As best as we can

And the more we engage in conservatory awareness

The more our hearts feel the calm inside

Blessings to all those who have walked our path

And decided to donate their money and time and love and passion

To causes that are outside themselves

Many have donated their hearts and their everything

To be an instrument of love and kindness

And honestly

This man I met

Lived a life of principles and morality

Bob Wallace

I have a picture of you hugging a tiger and I see it often

You lived this life doing what you loved

And it showed 

And it showed

And you glowed

And you glowed

And you taught

And you inspired

To conserve and to respect

All of Nature's wildlife

You inspired

And your legacy shall continue

With love. 

To my dear friend Bob Wallace

Parading in the wind while wild dolphins emerge from the sea

Yes 

Here is paradise 

As the scuba gear is fitted slowly

Yes

Here is paradise

As the silent day

Becomes part of everything that is

And everything that whispers love

Cameras in hand

And a dedication to appreciate

A dedication to learn

A dedication to teach

And a dedication to conserve

Because yes

This is paradise

This is God

This is the temple of nature

And its resilience shines

It takes and takes of what we give it

And it does the best it can

It always does

So with a camera in hand

Journeying in the midst of ocean and fish

Feeling the freedom

Feeling the bliss

Feeling the mission

And and overwhelming appreciation

To life's majestic forces

For

Yes 

This is paradise

This is indeed paradise

This is indeed a sacred land

And yes

It is worth it to keep its beauty alive

As best as we can

And the more we engage in conservatory awareness

The more our hearts feel the calm inside

Blessings to all those who have walked our path

And decided to donate their money and time and love and passion

To causes that are outside themselves

Many have donated their hearts and their everything

To be an instrument of love and kindness

And honestly

This man I met

Bob Wallace

I have a picture of you hugging a tiger and I see it often

You lived this life doing what you loved

And it showed 

And it showed

And you glowed

And you glowed

And you taught

And you inspired

To conserve and to respect

All of Nature's wildlife

You inspired

And your legacy shall continue

With love. 

Sunny days

And charming sparrows

Along this wooded route

Ohhh how nothing can disturb my path

When all is nature here and it is so alive and flourishing with trees

And sounds of birds

Who sing out loud

Who sing out loud

Yes

There is the moon at night that accents the nightly sky

It adorns it with a loving glow

It's the most beautiful magical show

This earth along with its rainbows and arches of trees

Forming a canopy above me

Oh life

You glorify the world with your beauty and strength

And you also give it a contrasting light

So that through seeing its opposites we learn

To choose

Wisely

To do what we love

Instead of depending on others to love us-is the key

And through awareness

We ignite our power

We have endless power

We have endless power

That comes from beyond this skin and mind

If we quiet enough

We can connect to it

And feel the peace 

That shines. 

Mind can take us there

But look at everything that is here

The wind blows and it tickles my skin

My dog's heartbeat beats over my leg 

And my heart grows fonder of this closeness

With her

I've spent too long forgetting what is most valuable

Yet it no longer matters 

All that matters is this silence amongst the trees

All that matters is the love in my heart for everything I see

I feel love in my heart for anything that inside feels pain

I hold pain in my head when I think of things that create worry and fear

But I look at it

I observe

With love

Everything is worth my love

My love comes from beyond me

Beyond this 5'5" feminine personality

I'm beyond the hair and nails

And muscles and skin

I'm beyond the beliefs inside that came 

From people telling me who I am and who I'm not

I'm beyond the many ways I choose to spend my days

How can it be any more perfect that what is now

I look at life and I look at death

And I'm starting to see not much of a difference

For our true hearts and our true spirit has no death

We just change our clothes

Sometimes put new socks on

Sometimes we take The old ones off

And within all that

Is the life inside of whatever is going on 

And whatever appears

This peace inside is priceless

It is the deep ocean within the stormy night

It is the deep ocean within the challenging waves

It is what allows everything to be

And watches it lovingly

Like the moon

And the stars

They care less of our drama

They care more to shine and keep shining bright

So that we can see ourselves through them

We've always been bright

Just hidden under the clouds and storms

We are awakening 

And connecting

And realizing

And appreciating all the angels in our path along our way

Yes

A 5'5" little person I no longer am

And more and more become connected to the source of my being

Of your being

Of our beingness

And wonder

I love you

I love you

I love you dwindling flower

Losing your strength

But not losing your power

You may seem weak

And lacking what healthy doggies do

But your immense peace and love at this moment

Is all I can see from you

You are calm

You are relaxed

You are affectionate

And loving

And embracing my presence and my laugh

I laugh when I think of all our times

I laugh when I remember you hiding your food from others

And in your little corner you sat

And ate your food while looking side to side (every so often)

Oh and how we ran

At the beach

And at the park

And in our hearts

We ran with joy 

And freedom

And then we stopped and rested

And looked at each other

And tasted all the dimensions of our love

And I know sometimes I failed you

But you still loved me

You have loved me unconditionally

And you still do

And even when we part from this physical plane

You shall be in my heart

And even when it rains

Or even when it snows

May you feel my love

And may it always grow

And deepen

And settle

With all of Nature's love

You are a little magic wand of light

And you have brightened my heart

I don't know how long we have

In this physical plane- it all moves so fast

Yet my heart is yours and your heart is mine

Our love has gained the bond

That never ends

It never dies

Our love will never die

And our stars shall unite like the presence from the moon

Bright and airy

It delights and it blooms

Majestic is the peak of mountains

That look outstanding in the the backdrop of the fiery night

Orange hues delight the colors of the sky

And a sense of oneness makes you and I a we.

We 

We 

Are

Here

We shall always be the delightful summer

Or the delightful rain

We shall always have in our hearts 

The kindness and love at our times of peace and at our times of pain

My little girl with beautiful blond fur

I may not always see your sweet delightful fur that I love to caress

But I shall always see your glow and your presence. 

I'll find you in the moon and in the stars

But mostly I'll find you in the deepest joys within my heart. 

I love you