neoprene brace

Neoprene brace that has loosed over years
but still he religiously wears it not even on his knees, for its now too big in size,
he wears it instead over his thighs,
but he wears it, something,
somewhere there may be a belief inside..
that it helps..
Habits we form, for 1 person-drinking alcohol is the norm, & for the other it is unimaginable why putting such substances in the body daily is done..
Its simply unnatural to some eating dead flesh after its suffered beyond the norms, its saddening & sick when I see slaughtered animals being beat with a stick, & chickens being tossed like a ball, up in the air, before landing in a truck. Dairy cows constantly being raped, depleted of all rights as their precious babies are taken away, so baby veal cows can stand w/o moving so they can become anemic, & die when there's hardly any circulation in the blood.. hence the term.. the white meat.
To some this is holocaust, 2 others this is what is right. Their bible even says it so... perhaps its all perception.
For when grandma & mama did it like that, we have cell memories that "this is right, that this is okay".
So when alcohol,stress, meat,or any overeating, over anything, like 2 much tv... manages our life, we may get stuck & find that the consequences dont feel so right.

I had knee pain once too & depended on my brace, i couldnt go anywhere w/o it, just like my friend now that i see everyday.
Until one day, w/bravery & faith, I started a new day w/a new kind of face, knowing i no longer needed that brace, that i can change any habits i face, & learn from what serves me, versus what makes me dependent, & eventually causing limitations. So i stopped eating meat because how my habits affect the world really matters to me, & now more & more I work on kindness to all, including me.

Listening to Eckhart.
People who try so hard
.. woonderful people that dedicate to helping others, after years
.. they experience burnout if they are just operating on level of object consciousness. there is a space outside the polarity of object consciousness. everything is already fine At This Moment.. allowing this moment to be as it is, and a space opens up around these events. at this moment may be a screaming human being accusing.. in tthe middle of turbulance, and finding inner alignment with the deeper dimension. and then ur free of dependence of the world of form, as if space consciousness were saying come home, because the spaciousness of the beingness is that. the kingdom of heaven. thoughts... are not that important. they want to be important. mental positions... we think theyre so important.." i think i still dont understand about space consciousness..

Minnie

Dear God, help me understand how a dog like Minnie is meant to have other plans..I know I know I can't have her forever.'She 's not gone yet, far from it, can u just enjoy her forever.. Cos even though she may be in another journey and sooner or later u both have to part, connect to her soul thats merry, and forever u shall both never be apart. I know its hard to deal with the fact, as cancer could be the word that separates u both, from this world existence, where u are human and she is dog. Oh she is far more than dog. I hope u can see that now.. and don't worry so much on whats best for her.. if ur mind is quiet enough, I shall guide u at every try. She does long to see dear Brownie, he is her love affair from
forever ago. He had the patience to withstand any and all behaviors, he's angelic, and he's still here helping her more than u know. So have faith, I know its hard, but u have no choice, u cant escape, live this,and go beyond the tragic heart that attaches so incredibly, and that doesnt know how to let her part. It'll just be the body, just the shell, whenever its meant to be,it wont be hell, and you'll feel the peace as she transcends to light and sun, her aura will brighten, her glow will move beyond. She will fully emerge with Brownie and they shall comfort you until ur well. This is okay, dont be so frightened, its not always about keeping the body longer and longer.. its about respecting their age, their purpose, and their will. Shes 13 and shes delighted just to sleep in ur same room. She doesnt want all the surgeries,and all the medicine that make her blue, she just wants u to connect w/her essence and be happy for what her plans are, with or without u. we all journey in this misty heartfilled life, we share with many, and so
etimes, we have to say goodbye.& that time is far from here.

It's 4AM and I am enjoying the freedom of yoga- stretching and unifying, strengthening, lengthening, relaxing, inticing to be at peace, to be at freedom within me. I feel such ease, such warthm, such peace. I spent some hours having sister bonding with such a heart friend, times like these are irreplaceable, truly special, truly supportive, truly kind. Im so blessed to have sisters that perhaps not by blood but truly by heart, and then again, what is blood? as family really aren't we all? Deep down we are all closer than we think, and especially when sharing with such special friends who become our family thru thick and thin. I go to sleep now while I listen to Eckhart Tolle, I have such blessed spirits, helping me awaken to such compassion and such depth, thank u God, and now I rest. Night night.