The Aftermath..

Aren't emotions nuts?
They can keep our mind hurried,
we become unreasonable,
we make a fuss,
we repeat the same old story
2 million times,

Just hush-
we tell ourselves
but
it seems a neverending,
a neverending hell..

And then a kind friend guides our path,
shows us reason,
helps with the math-
we slowly see both sides of that damn old coin,
we start letting go,
the story gets old.

We breathe again with a new deep sigh,
we say thank God,
we say goodbye,
to the worries in the head
and the emotions that gave us a head-
ache.

Oh Lord, thank you dearly,
for seeing that negative judgement is
like a a fever that never leaves thee-
who chooses to entertain it near or far.
I'm training myself to surpass this car-
ride to hell,
I rather see flowers, I rather see a sun,
I never knew that I fell
so far in the earth,
when someone's false accusation
turned into a poison
in which I deeply within
felt.

I like the poem from Mother Teresa
because it's true-
people may lie, and steal, and judge,
and reveal dark truths only to hurt,
they may take our money or our pride,
but in the end if we choose love
we see that it was never about working sooo
hard- to gain their trust.

In the end it was about us and God
and the wisdom that in the end we gained.

Ohhh this amusing ride that we are taking...
Roles people play from the arrogant to the insecure,
to the victim and the one with the-
guilty ride of selfish pain,
but for some reason- why do we do it again and again?

When are we ready to stop these dark circles?
These cycles after a while become more odvious,
more hurtful-
it becomes so disastrous that we eventually plead-
we hang our white flag,
we surrender and flee
these human habits that no longer serve our light,
for we choose sweet kindness instead of continual strife-

And then whenever we see anything dark
we look
beyond the dark night
into the soft stars.

For if the night were clear as day, the stars wouldn't be seen-
they'd fade away.

Perhaps duality is important to be-
in this curious physical world that we ultimately
need to leave-

Its a temporary place,
with a temporary face.

But in all-
can we see the brilliance within everybody's shades?

Deep light sparkling eyes that looks with kindness
when the soul's alive.

May we ultimately connect to what's eternally within,
for it is the treasure most lovely,
as I feel it in the aliveness within my skin.

New scratches at the door
the path of life,
the car that drives,
1000 miles a day,
in the head, without vain
or sane conviction...
it just goes on and on
without prediction.

But then warmly consciousness
reconnected, once was lost,
now redirected,
it always was there and now,
but now its found,
and life becomes bliss-
somehow we forget and come back to the mind..
not the mind of knowledge, but the mind that takes over
and believes a false lie of stories that were never ever true-
believing we are less, or any more than another,
how clue
less
we are
when we
believe the words of the head.
Can we just
drive far?
-far away from this hell,
but is it really hell? -if
hell motivates us to come out of hell?
When we are tired of suffering,
headaches and all,
headaches from suffering,
thinking too much and emotions of despair,
emotions of depression,
emotions that keep us stuck,
keep us buried..
But the embarrased person hides it,
pretends he or she is never "that weak.."
and with a face of disguise,
acts a face that is happy and..
Freak,
Can't we all just be real..

We are all feeling all these feelings..
We are all at times insecure,
or feel we are better.. it's called the ego
or it's called other things
but can we be true?
-that we are all facing similar struggles,
struggles perhaps in different ways,
but in truth we are all facing
a myriad of human tendencies -of
behaviors and emotions, of vices of many
-from jealousy and anger, and
sadness and blame, or righteousness or
judgement, or loneliness or fame..
We doubt, we react, we subtract, we extract,
we look at nature without looking at nature,
because we're busy thinking about "why this person
has such a temper..."

Oh life, its okay,
I'm realizing it's all in the end okay,
that even all the violence in all the world is trivial,
and every act and emotion is temporary.
I feel the only thing that lasts is not even a thing,
it's the ultimate formless that things contain around-this essence,
this bliss, this formless living angelic realm,
this spirit, this heaven, this love, this haven,
this consciousness, this God,
whatever the name, whatever the cause,
each religion fights because each think theirs is right

BUT what if they all perhaps connect to the same very sight
of love, of yonder,
of whispering guidance, of thunder,
of calmness within the streams,
of purity, of sweet loving dreams,
the guidance within the heart, the connectedness
that wins our hearts, the knowing that knows and trusts,
the voice that's highest and doubts no thoughts,
it is accurate, it is felt and experienced when we are ready,
it is lovely, it is merry, it is peaceful as peaceful can be,
it is what keeps us going when we wish to flee..

Oh dear God when I'm awake,
I thank you so, for keeping me sane.
I thank you Lord for waking up,
and also thank the stars above.
I know to be found, I have to have been lost before,
and continue with this yo yo ride until I wish no more.

Cycles of duality will continue to stay,
until we transition our life, until we wish to reach this higher state
and pray, meditate, be connected in this heavenly love in that we are,
this is heaven, this is my home, this is my origin, this is my love.

And with this love, in the background of whatever I do,
becomes the glow in what I do, it becomes the truth.

Sometimes we have to go around in circles again and again,
until we master our path and know our way.

Heavenly Father I know this is all in the end a game..
True love is the only answer.
In this I will keep my faith.

Everything that is not love eventually brings us back to love more and more everyday.