waves come and go.
can we stop them or manipulate them?
if we try to stop them we can drown in their mercy.
their strength is unparallel.
often they're so strong that they seem magnified and we feel so little,
swimming near this giant sized wave that gushes and roars, and it passes like the storm.
Can we allow it and its force?
Can we surrender and watch,
watch and watch it pass,
like a monster roaring and violently storming every breath in me,
yet i have ease
that there is peace
in the very core, in the very center,
and if im smart enough i can be a surfer
that rides the waves so eloquently,
welcoming the challenge yet knowing how to find the peace.

can we face life's waves like that?
by facing the challenges with enthusiasm and realizing that in every challenge there is a center of being, of freedom, of serenity.

find it. its there deep within. deep within the storms, deep within the surface of waves, deep within our wounds, deep within our pain, deep within. the sun radiates inside, and it sparks a welcoming surprise.
it is warm, it is present, it faces all, it find life to be a present, for everything that isnt love eventually brings us to the deepest blue, the deepest love.

the need to feel heard
the need to be loved
the need to feel understood
the need for empathy
the need for happy
and soft hugs and laughs

but

we experience such the opposite
sometimes.
the other thinking they're the greatest mom or the greatest dad but did they ever ask their child to open up, that they're allowed to speak up, that they are there to listen, and not just to tell us better ways for us to live in this existence,
cos sometimes we care less of what they think we should do,
and care more that they care,
that they empathize,
that they show us their time, their love,
that they hear us out, and allow us
to cry on their shoulder.

when we are suffering its hard to deal with their worries and their emotions, or their outcries of what we should do.
seems too simple but for years it feels like this request is something so impossible, for their defensiveness reacts and then we feel more unheard and we get mad...

and then we go back to the very old ways, letting them talk about them... and saying uhhmm,yeap, ok..

but regardless of how parents act,
they are still beloved, and can we just accept them regardless of these feelings and facts...

??

can we forgive them?
can we forgive within? for it takes two egos to carry on distress and mental anguish
and stress.

can we not take it personal and know this is the capacity in them in how to love? its perhaps what they were taught, that its not this way because of me or because they wanna hurt.


oh

life

is
only bliss when the story in the head is given a break.

no self no suffering

feel the light

everything else is a mask that blinds

but its okay

we appreciate best when we can see the beauty within after taking off the blinders. it all works in unison.