Rain

Rain
Magnified 1000 times
Stronger than rocks hitting the face,
stronger than thoughts that are harsh,
stronger than an ox running wild and into
only 1 direction..
this way..

I know it seems like life can be a vivid bad dream
sometimes
where all is lost within that circle
and all feels clouded
all feels circled.
All may feel tense, strong, and blurry,
we try so hard to get rid of it,
in a hurry..
because we can't take it anymore..

But it's just a cloud, no less, no more..
It is not who we are
But what we do can come from an inner light
or this human pain that's trully
as overwhelming can be..

I felt it deep when a dear friend of mine
vented about his misery..
and then I spoke to his wife and
listened to her version..
All pain in hidden eyes,
with its own perceived
perception..

It's so sad when trust is lost
and all that's left is a faded love
but 2 dear hearts
come back to play when
all is left is the essence
that stays,
beyond the years,
beyond this life,
beyond these struggles,
beyond the strife..

It's crazy how one can act
when anger is attached to the heart..
Years of building and love
that's yielding can come to a full stop
blow
by an act of anger that hits like snow.

And it can take years rebuilding
what an act from ego caused-
it's bewildering to the heart,
I send them both all my love and my heart.
I send them both all my wishes
to see beyond the mind's sad existence.

And perhaps through time and space and faith,
Life can repair what broke from days
long and long and long ago..
Let's give a chance to
what is beyond the show.

Perhaps we all have to not be in order to now be
what we were not before..
Does that make sense?
Sometimes I feel like there's no pretense..
Dear God, help me put it lightly..
"Feel within, feel within the layers that mask
your cheery soul,
deep down, there's nothing to mourn..
for all is meant to be a game,
to help you come back,
to help you return.
To love."

full moon

On this night
where the full moon shines bright
all emotions are out there
emerging everywhere..
But its okay, because maybe in the next day
or two
can be of use
to face the stressors
that in the past we used.

Forgive him my mom says
and hang out with him
you should be friends...

Is it enough that I'm neutral about it and wish him well or do i have to hang out with him when our past was hell..
noone asked him to treat me so mean when I was young,
or take his anger on me because he was mad.

Perhaps it still hurts,
perhaps deep down it does..
perhaps I lack trust..
perhaps i lack love..

perhaps i never trusted him at all to tell
all my life passions, perhaps I've tried once or twice,but he seemed indifference and I fell into the same old
wall, that protective aspect that keeps us apart but at the same time keeps me well...

They say pray for those who have done u wrong is important to live..
but what if there was never anything done wrong because deep down it was all meant to be.

Perhaps some people in our lives are meant to act as the 'arrogant one' and may be other are meant to be 'the bullies'.. All these challenges, all this strife... helps one perhaps choose a lifestyle of compassion or a lifestyle of the same sad cries..

All people who treated me with anything less than respect taught me how not to treat others or how not to treat me,
with anything other than dignity.

All that is not love, eventually brings us back to love.

The Law of the Garbage Truck

Had to share (most of this I got from an article my friend gave me, then shared a few things from my own experiences in here too.. :)

One day I hopped on a taxi and we took off for the airport. We were driving on the right lane and suddenly a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on the brakes, skidded, and missed the other car just by inches! The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us. My taxi driver just smiled and waved to the guy. And I mean he was really friendly.

So I asked., "Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital." This is when the taxi driver taught me what I now call. 'The Law of the Garbage Truck'.

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, full of resentment, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up. they need a place to dump it and sometimes they'll dump it to you. Don't take it personally.

Some people have the wisdom actually to see that situation as an opportunity to help a friend out, so they take a little bit of that garbage, and dump it out themselves. Through their love they are able to collect that garbage and transform it into love. Such people are Reiki healers, counselors, psychologists, friends, and loved ones. In Buddhism there's a technique where one breathes in another person's suffering and exhales it out into the Universe once its transformed into love. Other people just are able to plainly maintain presence and that open light and love melts the other's suffering into love eventually. This happened to me once. I was in France and was so devastated. I met a young girl who was so sweet and kind and she listened to me vent for like 20 minutes. She didn't say a word, but looked at me with such compassion, understanding, and kindness. Her love melted all of my suffering. I was so grateful. It was such a beautiful moment.

So when a person comes with a garbage full of waste, just smile, wave, and wish them well. We don't have to keep their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the streets.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day. Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So.. love the people who treat you right and pray for the ones who don't. Life is 10% what you make it and 90% how you take it.

Blessings!!!

Mike

My neighbor makes me smile.
I remember in the beginning when I'd knock at his door, and he'd come out with only his underwear on..
and my mouth was wide open and I was a bit surprised and confused,
that this 70 year old man,
has nothing to lose..
no feelings of embarrassment or fear i sensed from this man. He seemed so comfortable, so at ease..
& then I'd smile because it was kinda funny & cute..
Then I got used to it, year after year...

But it was so funny how this lady that brings him food on Tuesdays from meals on wheels knocked on his door, while I watched from the other side of the yard...
He came out in the same old way, wearing only underwear & socks and the look on her face,
made me intensely laugh...
It made my day although she was still in shock.
I had the same faith, that she too will eventually get used to it
& laugh.

He's so funny, sometimes he listens to his music for hours while the dog lies over his stomach & grouls...because she saw a cat then starts to bark but Mike is still sleeping, & I'm just smiling at this spectacle of daily life,
thats so comical to me.
Perhaps it reminds me of when he was asleep,
& someone put a cat nibble over his stomach, & the cat started eating while over his stomach, as he slept, his glasses were crooked while he snored, & the cat all the while was getting fed, another nibble of food.. Mike is a good sport, he knew he wasnt being ridiculed, because when he awakened he also laughed.

Mike, ur very sweet, the dad you are to these dogs, make you a king.
For a king is 1 who takes care of his community, & Mike's community are his dogs, which he loves like most others would never dream of.

I am so grateful for your funny ways,
the way you do things,
make me smile everyday..
Offcourse there's nuissances
but in all I love u in every way.

Minnie

Minnie
Pretty dog
but is that all you are made of?
No,not at all,
it is just the outer dimension.
Your beauty, your looks
is just your skin,
aloof we are when all we look
at is the superficial layer, we're not saints
but when I hold you in my arms and you cuddle with me and soak my heart,
and when you're cute and find a loaf of bread and carry it delightfully on your mouth,
but you were fed..
I think as I see you drool,
you always are ready to have some extra food.
You are smart, you make me laugh,
you are sweet, the sweetest actually,
gentle, loving, but sometimes sad.
Sometimes I see you sad when you whine for no reason, people may say you're very needy but I know you have your reasons.
you were abandoned by 3 families before,
you're used to being thrown out, when you're not wanted anymore.
You finally found a home and here you are to stay,
forever you are loved here,
on any given day.
Sugar spice, Sweet lullaby,
girl who dances in the ocean,
runner of the sand, lover and a fan
of the people who love you most.
You look at us with such love and devotion, and I am thankful
to have you too.
You are my best doggie friend.
I love you Minnie.
I Love u.

I love you

I hold you in my love
I carry you in my arms
I feel your heart, I feel your soul
I feel your essence within my soul
For your soul is my soul,
and this essence is one
One light, one light
and together the light becomes stronger
and magnified,
You help me to shine
I help you to shine
even though it feels like you are centered most of the time,
I see the sharing in our love.
I see the depths and kindness in our love.
And it flows and it beams.
In us there is no extreme,
just a tenderness,
a tender heart.
In us there's compassion,
we always give a willing part.

Life makes it more fascinating to me
when you are part of we.
I love you mercifully.

its ok, everything is okay in this moment. this moment carries a new breath. every moment carries a new breath. can u feel it? can u feel the essence of love thru ur breath? can u feel this support from beyond this world guiding you-never leaving u alone-even though sometimes it doesn't feels like its so-for when deep in our minds or habits nothing ever feels like silence.
when in our thoughts that race so fast, how could we even feel the treasure inside that always lasts.

but that still doesn't make it that we are alone. there's always a treasure in the heart, that's truly who we really are.
and when we come back to this place, we touch back to peace within our space, and then everything can be confronted with more ease.
Let love in, please.
U can do it, for its who u truly are.

never forget your origin.
never lose touch to what you have within-that star that sparks the room.
just open the doors and windows, and you shall see the glow that feels like sunshine.
don't just believe it, experience it.

just like the glow in a baby's eyes, it's like that because there is no mind, occupying his face, no fears filling up walls, its only love that is embraced.
and just seeing that little baby smile fills the room with treasures, he sparks our heart and sparks our eyes, and then our heart feels this warmth.
and without even knowing it, we connected deep within and beyond.

once connected. then eventually we became lost and disconnected, to eventually come back home. we eventually, when really ready, do come back home.