It feels like a re-run, I Get lost, I wake up, I get lost, I wake up again, at least it's better than before where I would be lost again and again. Times are changing, life is asking us to wake up in fast intervals, and it can be very frustrating -this massive awakening, that forces us to finally deal with our wounds, whereas before we tucked it away deep beneath the covers so we won't feel the storm.
But now it's different, everything's changed, things have less meaning, it is essence within that only remains.
I wake up, pack a lunch, but before it all, I feel the love. And if I don't because Im worried, or stressed, or fearful, or lost or hurried, I scan within. I look, I stop, I stop whatever but look within, and watch. I become more accepting of seeing what is. I'm no longer threatened, nor no longer get so mad that Im feeling this tense. I know its not me all these feelings, all these things. I know its just human tendencies, human behaviors, human pain. It's nothing personal, this tension inside the cup. All I can do is bring awareness in and awareness turns into love. When love is in the background of whatever I ever do, everything else melts into the love, it is its origin, it is the only thing that's true. Bring love in, bring it close, feel the aliveness in the hands and even in the feet or just the toes. Feel the tingling and the warmth as both hands almost touch, feel it everywhere and breathe slow, don't worry, all this is a show. Come back to love, its okay, to come back home.