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I love this blog, it is an opportunity to express my heart. And I so much appreciate you taking time from your daily life to receive what my heart writes, what my heart sings, what my heart feels, and what my heart wishes to share. It seems we all are going through such similar lessons, so may we all be each other's rock and strength in our transformation in this life. Bless you and love you! Naomi

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Only this moment exists. in the future that moment will be all that exists but are we here, or are we there, there because this moment is not good, not good enough. but in the alertness of this moment, we may feel contraction and tension in certain places which may make us not want to face it but if we are brave to confront and observe it, embrace it we also feel the depth of aliveness that is available at this moment. in this aliveness of inner body there is such peace, there is such sunlight, there is a dimension of infinite, of bliss. and naturally without effort, tension from the surface melts into the love from within, and we sigh with relief. it is such an exhale of peace and letting go.

While in nature, we may notice the peace and stillness here. its very helpful to be in a place of stillness, instead of being bombarded by things all the time. sometimes were so used to noise that in nature we look for noise.. trapped in mind hence stillness is unbearable. or nature lovers that seek to identify every species,etc.. can we just notice that dimension of presence, and in that moment there is no movement of thought. that direction of consciousness is arising.

got tips and bits while listening to Eckhart Tolle

Friday, December 24, 2010

xmas and what is it?

to me it symbolizes peace,
to me it symbolizes tolerance,
it symbolizes hope, renewal, love.
peculiar how every year xmas means more and more.
i think of Jesus and what his teachings taught.
the patience, the unconditional love and kindness, the warmth.
blindness can come and go
but the awakening of love
is
always reminded to me during xmas.
for all its worth, today is a good day. each day is when connected to such depth.

Monday, December 20, 2010

waves come and go.
can we stop them or manipulate them?
if we try to stop them we can drown in their mercy.
their strength is unparallel.
often they're so strong that they seem magnified and we feel so little,
swimming near this giant sized wave that gushes and roars, and it passes like the storm.
Can we allow it and its force?
Can we surrender and watch,
watch and watch it pass,
like a monster roaring and violently storming every breath in me,
yet i have ease
that there is peace
in the very core, in the very center,
and if im smart enough i can be a surfer
that rides the waves so eloquently,
welcoming the challenge yet knowing how to find the peace.

can we face life's waves like that?
by facing the challenges with enthusiasm and realizing that in every challenge there is a center of being, of freedom, of serenity.

find it. its there deep within. deep within the storms, deep within the surface of waves, deep within our wounds, deep within our pain, deep within. the sun radiates inside, and it sparks a welcoming surprise.
it is warm, it is present, it faces all, it find life to be a present, for everything that isnt love eventually brings us to the deepest blue, the deepest love.
the need to feel heard
the need to be loved
the need to feel understood
the need for empathy
the need for happy
and soft hugs and laughs

but

we experience such the opposite
sometimes.
the other thinking they're the greatest mom or the greatest dad but did they ever ask their child to open up, that they're allowed to speak up, that they are there to listen, and not just to tell us better ways for us to live in this existence,
cos sometimes we care less of what they think we should do,
and care more that they care,
that they empathize,
that they show us their time, their love,
that they hear us out, and allow us
to cry on their shoulder.

when we are suffering its hard to deal with their worries and their emotions, or their outcries of what we should do.
seems too simple but for years it feels like this request is something so impossible, for their defensiveness reacts and then we feel more unheard and we get mad...

and then we go back to the very old ways, letting them talk about them... and saying uhhmm,yeap, ok..

but regardless of how parents act,
they are still beloved, and can we just accept them regardless of these feelings and facts...

??

can we forgive them?
can we forgive within? for it takes two egos to carry on distress and mental anguish
and stress.

can we not take it personal and know this is the capacity in them in how to love? its perhaps what they were taught, that its not this way because of me or because they wanna hurt.


oh

life

is
only bliss when the story in the head is given a break.

no self no suffering

feel the light

everything else is a mask that blinds

but its okay

we appreciate best when we can see the beauty within after taking off the blinders. it all works in unison.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

while i have this temporary face may i always express the love i feel for u.
i look at you with my soul, with my heart,and i know in me your heart never parts.
you look at me with this grandness of love,
your wise plentiful soul knows nothing but true love.
in my spirit, in every molecule of me is the knowing that u my heart feels feeedom, feels acceptance, feels delighted, always at ease, for you allow me to be.

we bypass all dramas.
all struggles of the egos
makes no room in our home,
for we only delight ourselves in what truly within is born,
from pure expression,
of divine pulsations from the very heart,
ur eyes shine
so bright.
and i awaken on to you,
you've always inspired me to be true.

such glory in these kind of meetings,where souls can unite without the fuss.. just beings
just beingness and we glow..
together we glow.
2 lovers parted by death



they awakened into eachothers arms from
the bond of death,
from the sad filled faith of losing loved ones in the past.
seeing her mom murdered and his brother killing himself in their wounds,
and only together can they start to heal these disastrous wounds.

Upon falling in love and reaching heartfelt bliss,
she lost her only love
on a sunny morning.
Oh shattering hearts which mend slowly when a surrendered heart moves forward,
sometimes we need to move forward.

but its okay bumblebee for death of the body is just a partial passing.
the soul transcends and passes but to other dimensions even if it is to our mystery of unknown. life's fingerprints are merely the surface of the ice peak. it melts away. all is left is the eternal flame.
feel the heat.
feel the vibration of love.
in the wake of everything
let there be the invitation
of awakening to the profoundness within.
in it there's no goodbyes.
all else is passing and perishable.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Sylvester, you make me smile
I haven't seen your eyes in a while.
You're sweet
you're cute
you have the personality of a cat like no other,
you are like a deva,
a dramatic king,
you make such faces
you walk like you are the king.
the shadows around you are splendid and tall,
you delight others,
you are confident yet warm

and everyday when i see you walking,
or smelling by the trees in my sweet scented jasmine loving garden-
you bring about this happiness in me
you make me smile,
you're charming
you're free

and when i wake and see you fussy
with the other cats
i know its just Sylvester,
and I love you just like that.

Sweet little boy,
sweet little cat
i adore you
i welcome you always
in the warmest
most loving
part
of my
heart.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

A great bond

When I was little I used to go to these expensive restaurants with my family when my aunt and uncle from Curacao where staying in their 2nd home on Manhattan. It was fancy.. their apartment, the sofas, the kitchen...

One day we went to this particular restaurant and I saw these funny fish in a tank. They were beautiful. My heart melted when our eyes connected. Then I saw the same waiter grab one of them and took him in the kitchen. I had to follow. I was a curious 10 year old, but I was also wondering about my new friend. My heart crushed and splattered as he put this delightful kind soul into a boiling tank. I heard him crying. I cried and alone I felt.. alone not knowing how to speak out or even share my pain.. my lack of understanding of why these things occured.

I only knew back then how to be a listener. Even as a little child, it was me in a world where everyone was busy, except for my barbies, in which luckily, I had to talk with. Thinking back, everyone did the best they could, and did the best they knew- and they worked two jobs to make it through.. My dad being in the Holocaust and all, had veils of suffering within any hug I don't remember.. And my mom had her sufferings as well.. Trying to gain the material wealth that in her youth she never felt. To her it was a big deal to buy us a coat, but deep down all I wanted was love.

We need to not be in order to be. We need to experience loss in order to appreciate gain. We need to live that in order to surpass it. I wouldn't have the compassion I have today if it weren't for my past, if it weren't for my struggles. To understand another in pain, I feel, at least in my life, it helps when we also endured such pain.

Yet getting back to these gentle fish- my love affair with those sweet loving clawed fish never went away. Later I was told they are called lobsters.

Today at Publix I passed by the same tank I always pass. I kiss them and say a prayer for them. Today when I looked in one of them looked back, bonding with me with the same love and it makes me now cry. It makes me cry to know their fate, and that its due to Human Choices.

Our surface is just content, it's temporary, it's perishable, but our love, our oneness, this bond, this profound connection is eternal.

May I see you dear fish in my dreams and in the stars.

Sometimes it's so sad what things we go through, its so sad and devastating how people just walk by without the need to stop, no looking with compassion or kindness in their eyes, just thoughts of me... and the next thing that needs to be done in an arrogant cry..

I cannot understand the lack of empathy, to such loving creatures that spark out divinity. Magestically they are wise, wise eyes, wise heart. They deserve as much love, as any dog or any cat alike. Also the pigs out there that can't even turn, they are stuck in factories full of poop, full of hatred, because they are manipulated by workers who are there to serve a purpose- to keep an industry that's made of violent acts, there is no consideration, or love or acts, of kindness or understanding- no sense of empathy, no altruism, just madness.

And the cows that are beautiful to hear- a loud moo moo and their tender ears that shoot straight up, when spoken to. I remember Sylvia the cow actually purr when I rubbed her pregnant tummy with all my love.. Such sweet embraces, I remember and do- appreciate all I have been through- to keep me in observance of what is truth. Love.

May we always catch our tendencies and return to the profound caring love that we are. I send all the creatures who suffer- all my love. Choose Love.

And everything that's not love eventually brings us back to LOVE EVEN MORE.
what a heavenly day.
each day is so blissful,
and even thought at times emotions are challenging or thoughts can take us here or there- usually there..
and everywhere but here, this divine moment where we are free to face the beingness within,
the oneness that's always available,
the kindness that's full of grace,
hugging us in a warm embrace,
a shining light, a feeling so warm,
so loving, so peaceful, so full
yet with such space,
ahh this bliss, on this day.

we all want to find happiness and we think if the other person wants us then we have a chance, but for so
e reason many people turn tp those incapable of loving others with the ongoing wish that they will please them and love them endessly. and it caves the poor broken hearted soul, that craves for love, outside, while all the while that love was there in the least odvious of places.. within.

within there's a power without words that can explain it really.
people search and search but when they stop the frustrating search and merely just observe they see its right there,
as if a sun was beaming inside them,
glorious and transparent,
iluminating all senses,
mind is quiet and surrendered.
body is calm, and even if there's physical pain, the aliveness within and throughout iis so much more grand, it makes everything else so inexisttent,
and without expectation, the light calms the surface, transmuting it into the love in which it came.
love,
everything thats not love eventually brings us back to love more and more.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

I find refuge in you
trees.
I find safety here,
in this sacred space
of sacred places.

These trees.
This earth.
This peace.
This air
that is fresh
and fragrant
with a delightful
aromatic scent
of nature.

Trees
you bend from the sides
and along with other trees
you create a canopy over my head
and as i look up
I cannot forget
this beauty,
this life,
these colors,
my mind-
is silent and at peace.
All I know is that at this moment
I breathe.

What most that matters to me
is this essence inside of me
and with nature I share
the "breeze".

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Quoted lots from this video, amazing video!!! Amazing!!!!!

Listening to Jill Bolte Taylor
I was reminded by her the other day when I had a patient
delightful and sweet,
when our eyes met, I felt such freedom
in her eyes,
her vibes
were transparent,
like a baby that just just came onboard and woke up,
with eyes so curious,
her expression was so warm.

She'd smile and play and laugh and gaze
She had no fear, no worries, nothing in her mind
keeping her preoccupied.
She was present, there was no disguise.

And when I saw that her left hemisphere was affected,
I knew, I just knew as I smiled and reflected,
that this pattern I am seeing again and again,
in patients with left brain strokes,

Again and again,
I see this spark in their eyes
and not the rushing mind.
It's amazing how she was completely in her right brain-
"understanding that right here,
and right now, we are perfect, whole, and beautiful".


It's so amazing how the left brain works, according
to Jill Bolte Taylor,
and how it correlates with the ego- "the past
and the future. It thinks linearly and
methodically. It's designed to analyze the
present moment, categorizing all that information,
associating everything from the past and projects
into future all the possibilities..
All that language.. the chitter chatter...
That calculating voice, causing me to
be separate from all, even from you".

Her day of the stroke-
Jill, a renowned brain scientist, had a stroke,
a left sided stroke,
and "that day she saw everything had slowed,
she lost her balance, looked at her arm and noticed
she couldn't define boundaries of her body, of where
I begin and where I end because all the molecules of the
arm blended with the molecules of the wall..
The left brain chatter went silent as if someone
put the mute button.. She was captivated by the energy
around her, feeling this expansive energy, it was so
beautiful there.. la la land.. Totally disconnected from mind chatter,
all the stress from job, etc was gone, and felt lighter in my body.
She felt this sense of peacefulness,
losing 37 years of emotional baggage, she felt
EUPHORIA, and left brain comes back saying "you need help,
can I drive? Oh my God I'm having a stroke.. "
And right brain just saying "so cool"..

It took her so long to coordinate making a phone call to get help.
The hemmorrhage is at the time getting bigger...
Eventually she got help...

The video goes on and on..
Her transparency in connecting and expressing her light is beautiful.
She mentions she "felt her spirit surrender",
that she "was no longer just a scientist..".
She "felt enormous and expansive like a genie liberated from her bottle,
spirit soared free like a whale.. Nirvana.. she found nirvana..
She realized there was no way she could squeeze the enormousness
back into this little body. She pictures compassionate loving people
that could come back to this place anytime, and find this peace."

"Who are we?
(right hemisphere)
The lifeforce power of the universe.
at one with all there is or
(left hemisphere)
A single individual, separate from the flow,
separate from you-
(Jill, intellectual, neuroanatomist)

These are the WE inside of me-
Which would you choose,
Which do you choose?
and when?"

"The more time we choose our right hemisphere, the more peace we project into the world and the more peaceful our planet will be and I thought that's an idea worth spreading."

AWSOME!