Lotus flower
you've shown me your blooms
You bloom so magestically
You bloom when you bloom
And sometimes you don't
like right now.

Your leaves are so small,
as if they're almost nonexistent,
but they're still green
and they still breathe
the air that I breathe.

Lotus flower
I'd love for you to come back
and widen your gaze
during the day
and at night you'd
close your eyes
and as your petals shut close
you'd say goodnight.

Lotus flower I remember
there were times
when I'd come home from work
tired & hardly noticed you.
I would stay inside & watch TV
& while your friend Jasmin shared her sweet scent of magic,
I wouln't even appreciate it well,
for I just wanted to distract myself,
go somewhere else,else except here,
for here sometimes carries hell.

Sometimes we avoid this moment you see,
for in order to feel the joy in this moment we must transcend the misery & the pain & disease that we face each given day,sometimes its unbearable to breathe,
or feel any ease.

But dear lotus flower I'm learning to face whatever is in this moment,
I'm learning to embrace whatever thought arises,
I'm learning to pray & ask God for assistance,
I'm learning through faith that all these things happen to gain wisdom & days of ultimate presence,
I'm learning to be aware of scanning w/in any struggles & stress &giving it love,
I'm learning to meditate, of training the mind to go certain ways, to not keep feeding those thoughts that bring upon judgement & hate,
it's odviously known that I still have those days that I feel moody & torn,but I come back & face whatever feels strong, & even those emotions that make me tear up, or want to scream out loud, I Still eventually appreciate for just like you know
dear Lotus flower that there is no
flower without mud,
no bliss w/o struggle.