God gives us what we need not what we want sometimes
if we can be at peace with that
we got it covered.
if we can change it change it or leave
but if not can we accept it and
stay in ease?

child of love
forgive yourself for anything youve done
you are more than merely what you have done
see it as everyday experiences
that guide you to what no longer serve your true self.
the only way by knowing what doesnt serve us anymore is by experiencing it,
boldly in our own lives or seeing it in another..
and i know. we told ourselves over and over again,
to not eat too late, or watch tv until late,
no wonder i wake up moody and angry at myself,
ive done this far too many times to know better but.....
do u see how you self punish yourself thru your words,
actions that arent even a big deal and u already putting urself on that cross.

can u give urself a break?
know that ur human,
just learn from it and promise urself
that ull try next time to sleep earlier,
to eat earlier, and definitely watch tv earlier..
especially tv can fill your mind with great unease,
its easy to pick up energies from those we see, that scream, and shout, and seem to get so furious..
and were just watching them on tv and soaking it all in and then hours later were also feeling all those feelings..
and stricken with tension..
we have to come back to ourselves
for deep introspection, and not let ourselves be carried away with the angry mind that punishes today.
catch it. catch it now.
stop and watch the tension
and send it love,
tension is like your lost suffering friend who needs a hug and some reassuring.
let it know u are there to help
and be neutral and understanding.
also feel the aliveness throughout your body at whole, down from your feet, up to your head... thats all.. just stop, watch, and breathe, and recycle..
this body has amazing capability of recycling,
like a wave, comes n goes,
also let whatever comes in, pass, and go.
love urself for not what happens,
give urself a chance
its never too late..
this is what life i

owls and crocodiles

owls and crocodiles
sunflowers
and shiny armours
over a caterpillar's chest
no way better to look at nature's best

vegetable stew at dinner after a walk at the park..
wondering why my arms are so weak
after my workout.. what a week..
what a day..
its nice when we can share a smile and play..
with the dog
with our friends
life is short
but then again it never ends..

perhaps this body will shed and die sometime
as these bricks and stones may too dissolve to dust.
but the everescent life in a flower after the flower..
still dwells in life..
can we feel it?
or are we too busy in our minds?

its neat when we can use this recycling machine, and let out what we let in.
and as we clean it layer by layer
everything becomes clearer
everything becomes more transparent

and soon without trying
everything has a different face
everything becomes loving
because we see the lovingness within any and all acts.

people are lost sometimes and consumed by suffering
it can be so sad to watch and even
at times confusing
but let us not only focus on what is bad
for there is a glow of oneness within everyone,
and that's that
as i experience it.

and when a lost soul sees eyes of love regardless of whatever he has caused,
he too may finally for once feel accepted,and thru that love, which he probably never felt before,
will flower a transformation,
and love
may be the main ingredient from then on,
or not the,
may be it may take more time.
but a seed of kindness has been shared
for all ways
and perhaps it may be continued to be shared,
can we share it today?
we may not realize the power in our hug, in our smile, in our love..
until we see beyond
but regardless..
can we be true?
and love beyond most means?
all else that is not love eventually brings us back to the essence o

salutation to the moon

salutation to the moon
so bright
u amplify
life.
u strike the very chord in me
and as i see you i see me.

we are all reflections of eachother.
we are all mirror images of oneanother.
sometimes we hate to admit
that the weaknessess in him
we feel sometimes also..
until the honest heart
sheds an honest cry,
and eventually an honest laugh
and by this we awaken our path..
we transform
we transcend
we surpass
to no end
and slowly the layers slough off more and more until all is left is the crystal inside that remains warm.

and then we see within ourselves the same way as we see the moon
bright
transparent
loving
and forever
in bloom

Milarepa

The Life of Milarepa
A man who most would think would have no hope, no dreams, no life, no progress, no thought that there could ever be any hope, that he would get better.. How insane to participate in the killing of so many people, when they were flesh and blood, how could anyone ever think of performing such treason, is there any reason to ever trust in someone like this again? How could anyone? Most would defend..
Yet Milarepa showed the world what he could..
At first there was such guilt, without disguise.. He cursed his name, a thousand times..
He resisted healing from gurus around... He suffered so much, but through leaps and bounds.. he kept on going, finding that within all that masterpiece of pain, there was some glory, and some sweetness and depth.. he realized this is all we have that's left, beyond the multiple of layers, of skin, and mind, and bones, and feathers..

That we all have oneness and have it now.
That we all have the ability to reach it somehow.
But all the layers he faced and how..
All the guilt and blame and frowns..
All the hatred his family stored..
All the anger and attachment of it more and more..
He had to face all those layers,
face them straight on, face them each time they faced him.
And at times it was difficult to see..
All the layers screaming deep within..

But deep in the heart he knew it wasn't personal.
That all of us souls go through timeless dimensions..
We may do things that are horrible and that we regret,
but may we realize we don't have to be prisoners forever
of the things we fetched..

At times in plain anger we create such wars,
we create such struggles,
of selfish roars...

But we can go beyond anything we can.
Even if its tremendous, just like this man.
He faced what he did and he was so sorry..
But he went

Rain

Rain
Magnified 1000 times
Stronger than rocks hitting the face,
stronger than thoughts that are harsh,
stronger than an ox running wild and into
only 1 direction..
this way..

I know it seems like life can be a vivid bad dream
sometimes
where all is lost within that circle
and all feels clouded
all feels circled.
All may feel tense, strong, and blurry,
we try so hard to get rid of it,
in a hurry..
because we can't take it anymore..

But it's just a cloud, no less, no more..
It is not who we are
But what we do can come from an inner light
or this human pain that's trully
as overwhelming can be..

I felt it deep when a dear friend of mine
vented about his misery..
and then I spoke to his wife and
listened to her version..
All pain in hidden eyes,
with its own perceived
perception..

It's so sad when trust is lost
and all that's left is a faded love
but 2 dear hearts
come back to play when
all is left is the essence
that stays,
beyond the years,
beyond this life,
beyond these struggles,
beyond the strife..

It's crazy how one can act
when anger is attached to the heart..
Years of building and love
that's yielding can come to a full stop
blow
by an act of anger that hits like snow.

And it can take years rebuilding
what an act from ego caused-
it's bewildering to the heart,
I send them both all my love and my heart.
I send them both all my wishes
to see beyond the mind's sad existence.

And perhaps through time and space and faith,
Life can repair what broke from days
long and long and long ago..
Let's give a chance to
what is beyond the show.

Perhaps we all have to not be in order to now be
what we were not before..
Does that make sense?
Sometimes I feel like there's no pretense..
Dear God, help me put it lightly..
"Feel within, feel within the layers that mask
your cheery soul,
deep down, there's nothing to mourn..
for all is meant to be a game,
to help you come back,
to help you return.
To love."

full moon

On this night
where the full moon shines bright
all emotions are out there
emerging everywhere..
But its okay, because maybe in the next day
or two
can be of use
to face the stressors
that in the past we used.

Forgive him my mom says
and hang out with him
you should be friends...

Is it enough that I'm neutral about it and wish him well or do i have to hang out with him when our past was hell..
noone asked him to treat me so mean when I was young,
or take his anger on me because he was mad.

Perhaps it still hurts,
perhaps deep down it does..
perhaps I lack trust..
perhaps i lack love..

perhaps i never trusted him at all to tell
all my life passions, perhaps I've tried once or twice,but he seemed indifference and I fell into the same old
wall, that protective aspect that keeps us apart but at the same time keeps me well...

They say pray for those who have done u wrong is important to live..
but what if there was never anything done wrong because deep down it was all meant to be.

Perhaps some people in our lives are meant to act as the 'arrogant one' and may be other are meant to be 'the bullies'.. All these challenges, all this strife... helps one perhaps choose a lifestyle of compassion or a lifestyle of the same sad cries..

All people who treated me with anything less than respect taught me how not to treat others or how not to treat me,
with anything other than dignity.

All that is not love, eventually brings us back to love.