Human BEINGS.
Are our actions based on the human tendencies in which come about or do our actions arise from that higher purpose,from our deep essence of beingness? That is indeed a question to ask oneself at each given minute, at each waking moment one is offered the ultimate choice, and sometimes how we choose carry much baggage of consequences afterwards. However let us not concentrate on the malactions of others for they know not what they do sometimes, as Jesus put it politely. We are all human beings & carry many similar human temptations and tendencies- one way or the other.
Let us just be inspired and choose. Which part of me will be the captain of this ship? The intellect, the senses, the fears, the emotions, the desires, the attachment, the jealousy, the greed, the insecurities, the selfishness, and all those other tendencies that go in that category of human tendencies? OR do we choose beingness, the core of our ship, the center, the forever circle of ilumination that completes us, that embodies us with who we really are (if we can even silence everything else to connect to this plane of consciousness that is so warm, so loving, so generous, so forgiving,so centered, so kind, so patient, such life). Such aliveness in every moment of the day, sometimes we get glimpses of it and when we do everything becomes okay. Like when we go mountain climbing and the need to focus is so strong that we automatically silence everything else, and the day becomes so vibrant, so full of life, every leaf has a new spark, the day becomes more than a day,it becomes a work of conscious art. Or when we see a new baby for the 1st time and our heart starts to warm up with such love that is so kind. We get glimpses of beingness everyday when we do something joyous, caring, when we are conscious w/ our actions,

Only this moment exists. in the future that moment will be all that exists but are we here, or are we there, there because this moment is not good, not good enough. but in the alertness of this moment, we may feel contraction and tension in certain places which may make us not want to face it but if we are brave to confront and observe it, embrace it we also feel the depth of aliveness that is available at this moment. in this aliveness of inner body there is such peace, there is such sunlight, there is a dimension of infinite, of bliss. and naturally without effort, tension from the surface melts into the love from within, and we sigh with relief. it is such an exhale of peace and letting go.

While in nature, we may notice the peace and stillness here. its very helpful to be in a place of stillness, instead of being bombarded by things all the time. sometimes were so used to noise that in nature we look for noise.. trapped in mind hence stillness is unbearable. or nature lovers that seek to identify every species,etc.. can we just notice that dimension of presence, and in that moment there is no movement of thought. that direction of consciousness is arising.

got tips and bits while listening to Eckhart Tolle

xmas and what is it?

to me it symbolizes peace,
to me it symbolizes tolerance,
it symbolizes hope, renewal, love.
peculiar how every year xmas means more and more.
i think of Jesus and what his teachings taught.
the patience, the unconditional love and kindness, the warmth.
blindness can come and go
but the awakening of love
is
always reminded to me during xmas.
for all its worth, today is a good day. each day is when connected to such depth.

waves come and go.
can we stop them or manipulate them?
if we try to stop them we can drown in their mercy.
their strength is unparallel.
often they're so strong that they seem magnified and we feel so little,
swimming near this giant sized wave that gushes and roars, and it passes like the storm.
Can we allow it and its force?
Can we surrender and watch,
watch and watch it pass,
like a monster roaring and violently storming every breath in me,
yet i have ease
that there is peace
in the very core, in the very center,
and if im smart enough i can be a surfer
that rides the waves so eloquently,
welcoming the challenge yet knowing how to find the peace.

can we face life's waves like that?
by facing the challenges with enthusiasm and realizing that in every challenge there is a center of being, of freedom, of serenity.

find it. its there deep within. deep within the storms, deep within the surface of waves, deep within our wounds, deep within our pain, deep within. the sun radiates inside, and it sparks a welcoming surprise.
it is warm, it is present, it faces all, it find life to be a present, for everything that isnt love eventually brings us to the deepest blue, the deepest love.

the need to feel heard
the need to be loved
the need to feel understood
the need for empathy
the need for happy
and soft hugs and laughs

but

we experience such the opposite
sometimes.
the other thinking they're the greatest mom or the greatest dad but did they ever ask their child to open up, that they're allowed to speak up, that they are there to listen, and not just to tell us better ways for us to live in this existence,
cos sometimes we care less of what they think we should do,
and care more that they care,
that they empathize,
that they show us their time, their love,
that they hear us out, and allow us
to cry on their shoulder.

when we are suffering its hard to deal with their worries and their emotions, or their outcries of what we should do.
seems too simple but for years it feels like this request is something so impossible, for their defensiveness reacts and then we feel more unheard and we get mad...

and then we go back to the very old ways, letting them talk about them... and saying uhhmm,yeap, ok..

but regardless of how parents act,
they are still beloved, and can we just accept them regardless of these feelings and facts...

??

can we forgive them?
can we forgive within? for it takes two egos to carry on distress and mental anguish
and stress.

can we not take it personal and know this is the capacity in them in how to love? its perhaps what they were taught, that its not this way because of me or because they wanna hurt.


oh

life

is
only bliss when the story in the head is given a break.

no self no suffering

feel the light

everything else is a mask that blinds

but its okay

we appreciate best when we can see the beauty within after taking off the blinders. it all works in unison.

while i have this temporary face may i always express the love i feel for u.
i look at you with my soul, with my heart,and i know in me your heart never parts.
you look at me with this grandness of love,
your wise plentiful soul knows nothing but true love.
in my spirit, in every molecule of me is the knowing that u my heart feels feeedom, feels acceptance, feels delighted, always at ease, for you allow me to be.

we bypass all dramas.
all struggles of the egos
makes no room in our home,
for we only delight ourselves in what truly within is born,
from pure expression,
of divine pulsations from the very heart,
ur eyes shine
so bright.
and i awaken on to you,
you've always inspired me to be true.

such glory in these kind of meetings,where souls can unite without the fuss.. just beings
just beingness and we glow..
together we glow.

2 lovers parted by death



they awakened into eachothers arms from
the bond of death,
from the sad filled faith of losing loved ones in the past.
seeing her mom murdered and his brother killing himself in their wounds,
and only together can they start to heal these disastrous wounds.

Upon falling in love and reaching heartfelt bliss,
she lost her only love
on a sunny morning.
Oh shattering hearts which mend slowly when a surrendered heart moves forward,
sometimes we need to move forward.

but its okay bumblebee for death of the body is just a partial passing.
the soul transcends and passes but to other dimensions even if it is to our mystery of unknown. life's fingerprints are merely the surface of the ice peak. it melts away. all is left is the eternal flame.
feel the heat.
feel the vibration of love.
in the wake of everything
let there be the invitation
of awakening to the profoundness within.
in it there's no goodbyes.
all else is passing and perishable.